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Mon, 03 May 2004 04:51:55 GMT

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Sat, 24 Apr 2004 18:04:31 GMT

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Fri, 23 Apr 2004 04:43:36 GMT

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Concert

Fri, 09 Apr 2004 07:13:10 GMT

JET and The Vines were absolutly AMAZING!

The lead singer of the vines is fucking insane.

Met some cool people

OH and im not going to fucking mammoth anymore....which i find out 6 hours before i leave...

So if anyone wants to hang out...im gona be here :)

bah

late.

1: Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, find line 4. Write down what it says:
"No. They're bad for the baby."

2: Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What do you touch first?
Marilyn Manson CD cover

3: What is the last thing you watched on TV?
Shit i can't even remember

4: WITHOUT LOOKING, guess what time it is:
12:15

5: Now look at the clock, what is the actual time?:
12:25...woah.

6: With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?:
RINGING in my ears.

7: When did you last step outside? what were you doing?
At 11...leaving the concert

8: Before you came to this website, what did you look at?
My text message from Jen asking me to save her

9: What are you wearing?
Black bondageish pants and a white lace top Yoni picked out for me haha

10: Did you dream last night?
Yeah...that i had a gift certificate to a car place. and i got my windows tinted for 61 bucks and had 18 left over for a white sweatshirt...no joke

11: When did you last laugh?
When the guy from the Vines fucking kept triping over his mike because he was so fucked up

12: What is on the walls of the room you are in?
A large blacklight shrooming poster, rave advertisments, picutres of me as a baby, autographs, eh..and some trippy pictures

13: Seen anything weird lately?
Yeah, real thugs in hollywood.

14: What do you think of this quiz?
I feel really stupid and dont think anyone will read it

15: What is the last film you saw?
uh...no clue

16: If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy first?
A really really nice car

17: Tell me something about you that I don't know:
um...I'm in a science fair. yeah thats pretty odd

18: If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?
peace

19: Do you like to dance?
yesh...

21: Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?
i dont like this question
22: Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?
or this one

23: Would you ever consider living abroad?
Yeah. i will.

Fri, 02 Apr 2004 07:54:26 GMT

I lost someone very important to me.

I hate knowing what I've done.

That I hurt people constantly and they can't tell me.

Whoever wished me bad karma in life...thank you.

Your wish has been fully granted. Be happy now.

Fri, 26 Mar 2004 02:17:49 GMT

Vice 2004

Homecoming

Nat found that when she cleaned out my room :)
p.s. i hated my picture with my date.
heh

suck it.

Fri, 19 Mar 2004 05:20:36 GMT

LIfe's pretty low. but i know it is for everyone else. and everyone feels the same. or worse, because, you know, everyones lives are worse then everyone elses.
DUH!

i love my mom. i love my family. i hate when my dad's out of town. but that means me and my mom get to shop.
my mom understands, and talks to me, and listens to me cry.
haha sappy shit man.

lets see...
OH YEAH. k so i wont depress everyone with stupid shit.

Im working on getting a mustang. my car's too big for me. so a 2000 mustang would be tyte as fuck. That or a camero. blast up a sik ass system in it. a lil tint. twill be a cutey.

Im gona show this one to my mom lata. :)

and my dad already said we could check this one out. yesss:)

hopefully that'll work out. my mom hasnt had time to help me look yet.

a lot of people are makin me angry. im turnin the anger inwards agan but, hey, shit happens.
just dont fuck with me cuz im back to my old ways.

and im not getin steped on again.

and you will be fucked with if you fuck with me
that goes towards noone. just a statement so everyone needs to stop takin shit i write on her so damn personally.
its not about you. shittt.

im gona look into going to agoura next year but iduno if i should. it may not be worth it.

im gona start takin some classes at pierce.

i need some NOT immature freinds. this shit sikens me.

aight
peace nekas

Thu, 18 Mar 2004 23:58:31 GMT

to anyone who saw me flip out today.

Yeah ive got some serious fucking anger issues.

Deal with it.

Got my camera back...

Thu, 11 Mar 2004 03:05:39 GMT

Me and Milan

Torgy and Austin

Me and my beautiful friends<3

Me, Mason, Brian

sexyy Kate

Mason, Me, Brian

Kate, Nat, Jen

Jen (she looks like a kitten here)

Me and Milan

Kate, Me, Annie

Adam...(with his rufio makeup smudged)

Me, Annie, Jen

Jen...woah

Me and Milan

Nat, Mason, Me

Justin and Mandurz

Tasha...trying to work her camera...and Josh doing something to shiri

Shiri, Mandurz, Me, Tasha

<3

today was good. k bye

OH YEAH.
So in relation to my moms tired coment on my boobs...

She just got home looking a little tipsy from dinner...i dont know where the hell they went on a wednesday night

but she walks up to me now...9:00

mom: sara wheres my car? (kinda gigly)
me: what the hell are you talking about
mom: whered you put my car?
me: what the fuck are you on
::her eyes open::
she turns to my dad...

OH SHIT! i met you there remember! we left my car there!...
By sara! see you in an hour!

wow i love her hahahahhahahahha

it happens

Sun, 07 Mar 2004 19:16:00 GMT

PICTURE WARRRR

After the party it's the after party...

"yOu are soo not taking a picture of me"

"this button?" haha just kiding<3

haha natasha, are you singing?

bahaha

"You are NOT taking a picture of me!" hahaha

He said something insanely funny here but i cant remember...i was on the ground laughing for like 20 minutes though

Josh looks rather horny in this one haha
aww

Mandurz looks so pretty here!

"Mandurz! I took a picture of your ear!"

ha that was smooth

"what?"

Photo shoot of mandurz haha

anddd i look like im going to kill someone

This picture reminds me of an estrogen fest haha

notice nathalies little brother attempting to get ready for a night out haha...with 6 girls in the bathroom

drunky times :)

<3

Art Lovers...

Wed, 18 Feb 2004 03:52:16 GMT

Come apply and join this community

seulment

Im one of the moderators

Any kind of art...drawing, painting, photos, whatever you like

joindre s'il vous plaît
<3

Sun, 01 Feb 2004 21:40:25 GMT

Who. me? Oh. I can't remember. You? Me? What? No. Hi. Im fine. No. K. Bye.

sad. ness. down. wait. fuck. who. ? .all.

A lack of real freindships.
I think id like to fall asleep for the next few days.

Thu, 29 Jan 2004 23:44:35 GMT

Too many people have died this year for my taste.

I hate drunk drivers. H.A.T.E.

do yourselves and us a favor....and kill yourself. thanks.

Fuck you all.

Tue, 27 Jan 2004 00:04:42 GMT

Honestly I don't care if i never talk to you again.
FYI
(yeah you and you and you)

fucking idiot

Mon, 19 Jan 2004 03:53:28 GMT

"sex?" she asked with wishful thinking.

i think ill just have ME a salad!

eh

Schools a little bitch

Sat, 17 Jan 2004 03:28:03 GMT

Yeah this is what i fucking end up doing while "studying for finals"

oh, and some girls just prank called my brother and I cussed the shit out of them. Im not a fun person to mess with when im angry.

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Dude that things a genious :)

And everyone was comenting on the fact that i look like i havnt slept in a week today. COOL!

Um, no.

I want to drown my sorrow, no tomorrow

Thu, 15 Jan 2004 01:18:21 GMT

There are so many familier faces around me, Yet i know no one anymore.

I guess people are constantly changing despite our hopes that we have finally found our places in the world at a certain age. OR where we belong, who we belong with.

Nothing is for sure, and i now believe there is no age in which life has tangible qualities. It kills me to have this realization of life. People will leave you no matter what. Everyone is just a filler of space for another's boredom.

The drive home today was absolutely amazing. I was happy being alone, driving calmly with my ugly cassanova, thinking about the people i have, the ones to be thankful for.

How happy i was to have a friend to cuddle with and watch old music videos with that one night, despite the fact that it was 2:00 in the morning. And it didn't matter why i was sad. He just made me feel better.

How sad i was to discover that the friends who claim they will always be there for me, in reality may not be. That they are changing and how wierd it is to discover people are more like their mothers then they think. I most likely speak of myself when i say this also.

And how dissapointed i was to discover certain things about myself. Like how i will create a somewhat well-put figure in my head, say he will do, then not want him when he is there. Or how my appearence to others is summed up in the word "druggy." Is that a character trait? I doubt it.

I realized peoples priorities in life, and how they think of their grades has a lot to do with who they are. Despite certain choices i have made in life, those of which may not have been the best, i still do care about my grades and how i do in school. And about my parents. I know how i am. I know what i do. I do not need others telling me so. The way my parents have raised me I think is very good. Ive had enough freedom to experiment and figure out life for myself. They do not have to worry that i will go ahead and do drugs and fuck up my life when i leave because they know i have already had my chance to experience the world. I respect their choices, maybe more then they'll ever know.

And every person i meet is an accomplice in my life and who i am, some for the better and some not. I know i obtain trust from my parents, especially when my dad tells me i should buy a fake ID, and has already accepted the fact that i will be 18 in less then a year.

My mom said the most beautiful speach at her father's funeral. and this quote remains in my head:
"He never understood why we wanted to get good grades. or go to college. or what we were doing. But he would support us anyways and tell us to go ahead. I think that is what they call 'unconditional love.'"

OUCH!

Tue, 13 Jan 2004 02:45:39 GMT

haha

much<3

*my best friend is hurting and i cant help him and its killing me

Fri, 09 Jan 2004 02:43:34 GMT

She never mentions the word 'addiction'

She paints her eyes as black as night now
She pulls those shades down tight
She gives a smile when the pain comes
The pain gonna' make everything alright

Fri, 02 Jan 2004 19:18:55 GMT

This is my heart, broken in pieces.

Mend me back, so i can break you to pieces.

Mon, 08 Dec 2003 02:06:11 GMT

KARMAS A BITCH YOU FUCKER
YOU GET WHAT YOU DESERVE IN THE END.

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Tue, 02 Dec 2003 00:49:22 GMT

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You Know The Drill

Sun, 23 Nov 2003 21:46:49 GMT

I love counting the bruises on your body...

then trying to guess how you got them the night before.

I'll write about the weekend later<3
im spent.

*a little burst of aggrivation
::excuses are lame. thats not a good freind::

many will agree.
k by

Sat, 22 Nov 2003 08:44:43 GMT

So im convinced my freinds think im a sex addict...judging from their presents hahaha

much love<3

thank you everyone<3

Fri, 21 Nov 2003 04:31:00 GMT

I really cannot recall a day that i have been happier in my life.

i will never be able to say thank you enough to everyone who made this day so special...
from the people who got me cakes and apple cider and brownies and flowers...to the people that said happy birthday, to the peopel who spent the day with me.

i love you all and each and every one of you made the world to me.

i cannot get this smile off my face.

i like this. a lot.

oh wow. i love my freinds so much1!!!!!

and my parents too!!!
They remembered i love cookie cake from when i was like 7 and my mom went out of her way to get it.

gosh im so happy !!!!